Blue Hayden

Smell of FREEDOM

2010-11-21T13:50:00.003+08:00

Can you smell that?

Yes, my friend.

That's what we called

"The smell of Freedom"

*Nodding*

Ah ah ah ah ah ah Take your shirt off

Ah ah ah ah ah ah Take your shirt off

Ah ah ah ah ah ah Take your shirt off

(You know you want to)

B-Hay

So...I'm already a graduate.

Enlighten me.

What's so special about it?

Yeah, you're out of your High School life.

So?

It still doesn't mean that you'll stop learning

Math, English, Science for that matter.

Last Thursday

We had our Graduation night.

Masquerade Theme

(Black&White)

Theme?

TOTAL FAILURE

No one hardly put on their masks.

I didn't even bother taking it out from my bag.

Psshh...

Anyway, the event was uhmm....

Let's just put it this way.

For the past 3 hours sitting down at the table number 12

ONLY

The dance floor was fun!

The rest was BLEAH!

Unfortunately, it was cut-off by some people.

Just when it was getting excited.

Sec. 5 dance show down and stuff.

Aarrghh!!!

Screw that!

After the picture taking and stuff.

We went BOWLING!

BOO-YEAH!!!

FINALLY!

Something fun!

I am telling you it's not the first time I'm hearing Bowling for the whole night.

Waffle, who happened to be sitting beside me.

Kept talking about it.

Both Su and Waffle got their own get away excuse.

The TOILET.

When things are getting a little "DEAD"

I'm really not listening to any of the things going on at the screens nor the stage.

Waffle, Su and I started playing games.

Laughing and teasing each other.

Seriously, got me through the night.

Without it.

I'm probably be depressed till now.

Later that night

Ended up bowling.

As usual I'm still suck at it.

But it never failed to fascinate me

how people teach you

having thought that you don't know anything.

They tell you every single things

that you ought to do.

If you didn't

they will try to explain it

over and over again.

Guess that what happened

that night.

I was smiling all night while bowling with the rest.

They saw me I suck at bowling

They try to teach me how my elbows should move.

You know "bowling talk"

I wanted to laugh while Waffle was talking.

Kept saying I should get 7 pins down.

I walked to the lane and throw that heavy ball.

Like i'd done it DOZENS of times before.

And knocked down her 7 pins down.

So Proud of me.

She wants it. She got it.

Pretending not knowing anything about bowling?

Just laugh about it.

Hahaha...

Seriously, I don't know anything about bowling.

Hahaha...

*Evil Smile*

What is mojo?

2010-05-14T21:38:00.005+08:00

2010

Year of a GEEK

I need my mojo back

B-Hay

"FREE!! FREEDOM!!"

I could smell my sweet sweet victory.

I'm lovin' every second of it.

Friday-Monday

Extended holiday...

What to do..What to do..

Past few days...ALMOST 2 weeks to be exact.

I was mugging for exams and now it's over.

Too much drama.

What is mojo?

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

2010-03-11T19:16:00.004+08:00

I never felt this way before

It's very awkward

I caught him staring at me

I found myself staring at him

I was mesmerized

Now I can't get it out of my head

Every time I'm taking out my pen

I always see him

I turned around on my chair

I turned back

There he is again

Staring at me

Taunting me

You might say I'm crazy

But

I should have done it long time ago

I should have agreed long time ago

By then I would have got him

I don't care about that now

Cause I know he'll be mine

He just shines under the fluorescence

Everybodys enviuos

I can't take it anymore

I've got to have it

I walked up to him

There he is staring at me again

I could hardly talk

Staring

I know almost immediately

That he's mine now

I smiled

Stretched out my hand

"Thank you"

Now

I'm holding him in my hand

I promise I will never let him go

All eyes were on me

But holding him makes me feel

PROUD

Returned back to my seat

Still staring at each other

Rectangle shaped

Blue and golden letters

"I name you Bage."

Pinning it on my uniform

I'm so Proud of myself.

Monday Blues

2010-03-08T21:44:00.003+08:00

Hey
Hey
Monday
Blue
Monday Blue
Hah!
Get it?
No?
Well don't confuse yourself
Just know that I'm back
Blue

B-Hay

Last entry November 30 2009. 3 months? That long?

Time sure flies when your having "okley-dokley" F-U-N!

NOT!

2010

WHAT MUST (NOT) DO?

1. Do every single homework assigned.

-> Because O lvls coming. JOY!

2. Listen to every single lesson.

-> Joy Killer

3. Never get tired of going for GERMAN class.

-> Worst day of my life. Not with that guy sitting in front of me.

*ahem*

4. Must PASS every single tests and exams.

-> I hate you.

(exams & tests)

5. I " DARE TO DREAM!!"

-> Sorry..English essay stuck in the head.

6. I will eat you ALIVE!

-> This is just plain stupidity.

7. I've got nothing to say.

-> Seriously.

8. Better click that red "X" button on the top right hand corner.

-> Please refer back to the HEADING.

9. If you really refer back to the HEADING.

-> Ask yourself " What does that really made me feel?"

Please answer to the tag box located somewhere in the blog.

10. Answer me. "Yes ? or No?"

-> DON'T EVER ASK ME "WHAT'S THE QUESTION?"

BECAUSE I ALREADY ASKED YOU THE QUESTION.

HI!

My name's Blue Hayden.

No that's not my Full (FULL) name.

and

No I will not tell you my Full (FULL) name.

Yes I have the Monday Blues.

(Did you see that? I'm "Blue" and today's "Monday".

"Monday Blue" )

Get it?

NO?

SLOW...

I've just realized my dog is staring at me.

No I don't have anything funny on me.

and

Yes you should shut up.

Tommy's complaining.

*grumble grumble*

No I don't have a kid.

Even if I do I wouldn't named it Tommy

Yes IT is hungry.

Wanna eat?

(Don't answer that)

I've realized I'm talking to myself

*Symptoms of Monday Blues*

Wanna Know something stupid?

Say "YES!"

Today is Tuesday but I kept on saying It's Monday

No today is not Tuesday

Yes Today is Monday

No I'm not stupid

Yes I know I'm smart

Wanna know something weird?

For the past 30 minutes I'm talking to myself.

No I'm not a psycho.

Yes I'm normal

No I'm not abnormal

and

Yes I should really stop talking to myself now.

Buh-Bye!!

Good holiday? Bad holiday?

2009-11-30T20:33:00.005+08:00

Well

Well

Look who's back

It's Blue again, aye?

Glad to have you back

- My pleasure

*Both shmilin'*

Now get out of here!

Shooo!

- Oh oh it's my pleasure!

- Babush!

B-HAY

Thank you for welcoming me. Good news. Good news. My blog is alive again!

Now clap!

*clap clap*

Editing those weird templates was a real hard work.

Thanks to yours truly.

So

It's the holidays huh. Awshum holidays? Don't think so.

Spending all day at home and doing the very same routine each day.

Isn't my ideal holiday getaway.

(If you know what I mean)

And so here I am blogging what I've been doing so far.

But to be honest, there's only one thing I'm eager to get into.

FISHBALL, HALO-HALO, JEEP, DIRTY ICE CREAM, QUEK QEUK,

SAGO, TAHO, PANDISAL, TRICYCLE, PEDICAB, PASYAL, CHICHIRYA,

ICE CANDY, NEW YEAR (PAPUTUKAN!!),

PHILIPPINES!!

HERE WE COME!!!

Yes, you read it right. We're going back to the Philippines this December.

I'm ecstatic!

Hit the beaches, the largest mall in Asia the one and the only 'Mall of Asia'

and hit the food (the street food, may I mention.)

Anyway

Moving on

(Yeah, I'm so moving on cause if you think that

I can't move on you got it wrong cause.....

aahh forget it. )

My holiday nothing much happens.

At first I wanted a job,

but they said I better not

cause "i have to focus with my studies O lvl is coming"

What a joy killer!

Secondly, I miss acting,

next year, I better be back on stage.

Thirdly, I made new friends,

Fourth, I'm so psyched to go back to the Philippines.

Fifth, I can't wait to get out of Singapore

caused by some people.

Aargh...I don't even wanna think about it.

Sixth, Facebook and Friendster is a website killer.

They're becoming a toxic to me.

A poison that will lead to my slow suffocation.

So CHIM!

SEVENTH, This Thursday 3rd Nov.

Will be the first month that I hid my memories!

Won't be seeing it for awhile I guess.

Let's stop with 7 reasons.

( Don't you just love 7?)

In a while I'll be off accompanying my mom to town.

Oh yeah, Frequency, Suzie and I made a new song.

"Maybe If"

Not yet finish though.

Soon.

Ps. I don't like my new skin too many buttons to press.

Ah what the heck. Too many people bugging me to fix it.

I might change this soon.

Blue don't like.

My stupid story

2009-11-14T15:23:00.002+08:00

Oohh...

Woozy...

Ooohh butterfly!

Fly fly..

Blue snap out of it!

What's wrong with me??

Ooohh shiny!

B-Hay

This is a stupid story of stupidity.

So if you continue to read this stupid story then you're really SHTUPID.

One Saturday morning, a girl named Blue woke up. Walked into the kitchen and opened the right side of the fridge. Took out a bottle that she had never seen before. "Nice bottle", she uttered.

Settled down at the long oak dining table and drank her heart out.

Weird, she thought.

Blue talked, laughed and giggled to herself with no one's around.
Her brother JV came and sat down beside her and started pressing down buttons on his lap top.
Watching TV, Blue was curios what on earth are they talking. She asked her brother silly questions.
" What's torete?....What's 214?.....Who is she?....What is she singing?....What's the first 3 words?"

Without failed her brother definitely answered everything.
The only thing that Blue did was swinging back and forth giggling to herself.

(Just like what Katie did after killing her dear husband Micah, at Paranormal Activity.)

Ken came and looked at her as if she had gone bonkers.

Guess what? Blue just smiled and giggled.

Swinging back and forth.

Chino came walking pass her and mentioned,
" waahh. Blue's drinking VODKA."

Hell.

Blue stared at the bottle.

Smooth feeling as the liquid slides down her throat, transparent liquid, no bubbles, no smell.

Blue's confused.

Vodka? Can't be. She thought.

She twisted the bottle around.
In BLUE BOLD LETTERS.

ABSOLUT
CENTURY OF SWEDEN
VODKA

*This superb vodka

was distilled from grain grown

in the rich fields of southern Sweden.

It has been produced at the famous

old distilled near Ahus

in accordance with more than

400 years of Swedish tradition.

Vodka has been sold under the name

Absolut since 1879*

"Bloody hell", whispered Blue.

-THE END-

If you get to read my stupid story.

CONGRATULATION!

You are now considered the
MOST SHTUPIDEST PERSON.

EVER.

(" Oh don't tell me to Shut up!")

P.S.

I just want to mention that I FINALLY watched Paranormal Activity.
All thanks to Chino.
Oh yeah! My Sayang in yer face!

Just letting you know, I did not actually drank VODKA.
It's just the bottle that has VODKA written on it.
So no harms done.

I'M STILL CLEAN!

ALLELUIA!!

The Evil Ronald McDonald a.k.a. ' the evil IT '.

2009-10-25T00:06:00.004+08:00

Beware!

"wash your hands"

"yes, mommy"

*at the sink*

*washing*

"Hello there, little girl!"

*With humongous EVIL grin plastered on IT'S face*

*Girl kicked and punched the EVIL CLOWN*

"Mommy! It's Ronald McDonald! Make it go away!"

Oh I hate Ronald McDonald.

B-Hay

As I was saying. Let me repeat myself. No offense to McDonald company or what so ever. This is based on my own fear of one and only clown. Ronald McDonald.

I-hate-Ronald McDonald.

Ronald McDonald.
What's more can I say about Ronald McDonald 'the evil IT'?
How contradicting can it get? When a girl celebrated 2 of her birthdays with clowns performing in it. 1 yr old party and 9 yrs old party. There were clowns performing old fashioned magic twicks that made the audience say, "oooooohhhh......aaaaahhhhh.......*clap clap*"
I've never been scared of clowns before.
Not, till I met 'the evil IT'.
I'm ridiculously more scared of 'the evil IT' than being sped over by bicycles or almost get ran over by taxis TWICE. (thank you very much)
OR
being infested by roachies!!
( Oh i hate roachies!)

It was a Thursday.
My classmates and I decided to eat at the nearest McDonald and I saw this poster.
A girl washing hands AND Ronald McDonald was staring at the girl.
WITH a very pale face, large open mouth sized of a fist forming a FAKE grin.
No descriptions can explain how Ronald McDonald looked like in that picture.
Can't even believed that the girl looked so darn happy seeing 'the evil IT's big fake grinned face.
The little girl must be thinking," mommy, get me out of here! *sob sob*"
(Evil clown. That big fat red lipped clown. Face so pale.)
( I wondered if IT bleached itself just like MJ. Then my phobia will be gone. Cause IT will melt under the sun. "I'm meeeelltiing...I'm meeellttiinngg...")
(I'll be Euphoric!)

She must be crying inside and thinking of ways how to get "the evil IT" out of her sight.
Cause if I were the girl that will be the things I'll be thinking about.
No doubt.

While eating my burger can't helped myself having a feeling that something's watching me.
Then I turned to my left and face to face saw ' the evil IT 's fake grinned face.
*I'm gonna gobbled you up*
*I'm an evil clown
I'm gonna eat you up
I'm an evil clown
Tralalala*

*SHUDDERED*

Enough Blue.
You're thinking too much of ' the evil IT '.
I got a feeling I'm gonna be dreaming of IT tonight.
*SHUDDERED*

I guess I won't be sleeping tonight!
*Happy happy*
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Naaahhh....Not gonna happen.
I got to have my beauty sleep.
*eeiiww*
Anyway, I have to face Ronald McDonald a.k.a. ' the evil IT ' sooner or later.

There's no way I'm going to be defeated by that EVIL CLOWN which can't even put lip stick on properly.
(It's a MALE....or it isn't?)
O_o

IT has a large FEET for crying out loud and flaming red hair.
I guess no one can put the fire out up there in his head.
*Funny*
(Laugh or else.....)

As I was saying. Let me repeat myself. No offense to McDonald company or what so ever.
I-Hate-Ronald McDonald
.
.
.
.
.

Done.
*
*
*
Off to my beauty sleep.
(See ya, Ronald McDonald a.k.a. ' the evil IT ' in 10 mins)
*WICKED SHMILE*

Evil things I've done. (READ IT. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO)

2009-10-17T22:44:00.004+08:00

"Firefox has new window."

-Shut up lah!!-

"Close button"

"Firefox has new window"

"Close button"

-SHUT-UP!!-

Jeez....

B-Hay

Shtupid Macbook...So freakin' noisy. "Close button"......"Firefox has new window." It's like telling you what to do and what you have done. So annoying!!
*cough cough*
"Close button....Close button"
SHUT UP ALREADY!!
Every 2 min, "Close button"...."Firefox has new window".
OH SHUT UP!!

It must be my brother. He must had set this voice over up so that I could get SO DARN ANNOYED that i will stop using his "BRAND NEW MACBOOK."

Oh oh that will never "NEVER" (emphasizing the word "NEVER") work for me. HAH! "Firefox has new window" See? it had done it AGAIN!
I'm so pissed.

SHTUPID MACBOOK.
What so good about it eh? Pfft....Macbook....So what?
(Did I had the same reaction as my other brothers Itouch?)
Naaahh.....it mustn't be it.
"Firefox has new window"
(20 sec ago)

SHUT UP ALREADY!
*cough cough*

"Close button"
(10 sec ago)
MOMMY~~ Make it shut up!

Anyway, Moving on.
Oh yeah! I'm so moving on. Cause if you still think I can't move on then you'll think that.....blah blah...
I've already mentioned this before.
Why am I repeating myself?!
(What's wrong with you Blue? Seriously!)
(Shuddup!....Yes Blue!)

Ok.
This afternoon kuya Chino bought me new shoes! Nyhahaha...
FINALLY!
After waiting for like 1 week for the both of us have a free time.
He DON'T want to give the $CASH$ because
("CAPSLOCK ON"...SHUT UP!!)
HE WANTS TO TAG ALONG.
("Capslock off"...mommy~~)
Have no idea why. He might be thinking that I would steal his money that is going to be wasted on shoes FOR ME!
In another way around, it's STILL gonna be wasted FOR ME.
So what's the point right?

Last Wednesday ( I think..)
Sayangs and I went to West coast to leypak (lakepark).
Unfortunately, it rained.
What wonders me the most was, why does it always rain every time I stepped in at west coast.
(She says I'm jinx)
I must be jinx then.
(Goodness gracious)
O-o

After that, we went to our teachers place for Hari Raya. Fina lend me her traditional clothes so I was wearing it WITH my SNEAKERS.
(oohh Sneakers sound good right now.)
Didnt mind, the color contrasts anyway.
The 4 of us were like a family, with full of purple and pink colored clothes
AND shoes (for me).
While we were there we ate and talked.
Of course, played with a cat.
(LITHIA! Where are you?)
(I have no idea why I just did that)
(Shuddup Blue...ok, sorry Blue)

I'm sleeping and the cat just leaped over to my lap and laid down comfortably.
DEJA VU!
Why cats have the same reactions with me?
Same thing happened when I was in Japan.
Freaky.
We're about to go home.
I shook hands with aunty then she handed me this small envelop.
I have no idea whats in it. I even asked ms Suhada if I should accept it.
I didn't opened it until I got home.
Safe and all alone.
Oh here comes Bangs!

Yesterday,
After that THING.
(The high high THING)
we played netball and soccer.
Then we went to sayang's blk and talked.
I still couldn't believed that I told them one of
my DEEPEST DARKEST SECRET.
(Gosh...)
I trust them.
From that point on tricircle was created.
(or tricycle. Whatever. Either one)

Thing i've learned from my life lesson teacher.
Never let go of people that makes you laugh.

*Applied in life*
"Blue!...yah? You make me laugh."
"haha...that's funny,Blue"
Moral: I'll never let go of myself.

P-O-K-E-R F-A-...... (How in the world do you spell that word??)

2009-10-09T15:55:00.004+08:00

Okay.

Question 9.

What is acceleration?

Answer.

Po-po-po-poker face

po-po-po-poker face

Can't read my

Can't read my

No he can't read my poker face....

"shut up Blue!"

"focus focus"

"I can do this"

"okay. Qn 9"

"acceleration....ok.

It's the distance travel by a.....

Po-po-po-poker face...."

"SHUT UP BLUE!"

"okay. sorry, Blue."

"ok. qn 9"

"maaann....I should really stop talking to myself"

"you got that right"

"alright, quit it!"

"ok"

"stop it!"

Ok

Stop it!!

OK!!

tigilan mo na!!

aarrgghh...forget it.

B-Hay

If you've been wondering what in the world I'm doing up up there.
Well, ......I have no idea.
O_o

Alright, here' s the thing.
This morning, I was having Physics paper 2 in some other class. I was assigned to sit behind the classroom and "attached" to this table.
What the hell, somebody vandalized the table!! (That's what HE said)
(FYI not me.....I'm just saying)
(Not mentioning name)

I looked down to my table and grinned dumbly to myself.
I wanted to laugh soooo loud.
Unfortunately, the teacher came.
I told HIM, my table's better
it has

POKER FACE LYRICS WRITTEN ON IT!!

Other classmates came and hovered around the table.
Laughing hysterically.
Singing under their breathe

"I wanna hold them like they do in Texas place
Fold them, Let them, Hit me
Raise it baby, stay with me........"

For the past 5 min, I was staring at my table.
With a stupid grin plastered on my face.
Until now, the song is still stuck in my brain.
It's the whole freakin' song!

Moving on.
Next topic.

(Oh yeah....I'm so moving on....who do you think you are huh? You think I can't do this?
Well, you got it wrong. Cause by the time you realized that i still didn't moved on. Then you'll think that I'm thinking that you'll think that I think I can't move on.
YOU-GOT-IT-WRONG!
BOO - YEAH!
You got that right.
Cause I'm already
M-O-V-.....
What ever it spells. )
(see I told you I need help in English....*cough* WITH English)

So yeah, so I was saying "MOVING ON" next topic.
Gosh....It's 4.35pm already!
Time sure flies when you're having F-U-.......
(Darn it! I should ask Aini to spell it for me again.)

I better check it out if I-carly's on.

(yeah yeah
If you wanna play
come and play today
let's just get away
Yeah....)

Hold on.....
Pppssshhh......
How stupid can I get?
That's the theme song in Zoey 101.
*sigh*

Oh great!! Just perfect it's already 4.42 pm!!
I'm late!
"Blue just shut up!"
"yeah, I should really stop talking to myself"
"S-H-U-... Whatever how you spell it
Just go!"

Fine.

Will you just read it already. Jeez...

2009-09-01T20:37:00.003+08:00

*sniff sniff*

Aaahh...Chhoooo!!

*sniff sniff*

*sigh*

Aaaahh..Chhhooo!!

*sniff sniff*

*Blew tissue*

EEiiiwww...

Crappy FLU

B-Hay

Yesterday, had a blast during teachers day. We performed for teachers day, we sang the climb, Burnin' up and I know you want me. It was Fun. They asked me to be hyper so that people singing with us be hyper too. So I just did my best and it turned out everybody seemed to be having fun.....I hope. Right after that, watched student and teacher games, went one of our teacher's house and watched Grey's Anatomy marathon. I guess they didn't noticed that I was lying
on the sofa drifting off to sleep.

Ssshh.....

Weird, I thought I heard camera clicking behind my head.

Hmmmm....Naahh must be the T.V.

Then she's off for teacher dinner thingy.

Today.

Bad news.

Bro. Erdie died. I heard from my mom and she told me all about it. Log-in in face book saw few videos and messages of condolences. Cardiac arrest. Everybody was mournful about it. My mom wanted to cried but she didn't. She wants to be strong even though she felt like she lost a FATHER. Out of unexpected circumstances, I started to feel like i've lost my grandfather and wondered what if my REAL grandfather died. Would the feeling be much more worse?

Seems like I've found my inspiration.

All the things he had done for us.

He fought for us.

Now.

Thinking.

Why in the world do I feel like studying??!!

Why!!

(This is BAD)

Anyway, I'm typing *type type* in my brother's room. Oh yeah, before I forget. I thought I was gonna die yesterday. Cause I stole my brother's bag without permission. Actually, With permission, except that he said "NO". But I took it anyway.
(You're such a bad girl, Blue)

When he came back home, I forgot to close my brother's door. Oh Crap! He saw me and gave this staring eyes. Man......I thought I was gonna melt. Luckily, Bangs came into the scene and saved the day!!
( Way the Go, Bangs!)

My brother is in the living room, listening to music from T.V. MTV channel I bet. While fiddling with his "NEW" Itouch. Crappy itouch. Have no idea how much I wanted to use it. If you know what I mean. *ahem ahem* Play games. Listen music. Go internet lah. Yupp yupp...All the things you can do on this computer. Yeah....Why would make my life miserable using that small screen while I have a screen right before my eyes, Size like a mini flat screened tv......Pfft.....
Itouch...so what....pfft...What so good about it eh?

Moving on.

Saw the pics taken during teachers day. I'm starving. Who the heck is Tegan and Sara? I hope they look pretty. Nyahaha......*ahem ahem* I'm starving.

I better grab some food to eat.

I'm Off.

The Time has Come. R.I.P.

2009-09-01T19:54:00.003+08:00

Time has come
The time that shocks the whole nation
They couldn't believed
What they have heard
.
He's GONE
God has taken him
.
From us
Tears were shed
The sky had done its part
(Rain)
.
.
.
He led us
Along this battered path
On his own
WITH
God on his side
He fought to stay strong
For us
For God's nation
.
.
Now he's gone
We
Ourselves
Be strong
.
.
Cause we know
In the End
.
.
In the Holy City
We'll see each other again
We will rejoice.
WITH
God
.
.
While we stand
We will always remember
To thank
For
All the things that had done for us
By
Our Brother
A father too
Our leader
The source of light
.
.
He will always be in
Our minds
And
Our heart
.
.
Cause we know
He's in safe hands now
Where we will be
.
.
.
Soon

B-Hay
(Copyright 2009)

Why is this keep on happening to me?

2009-08-16T20:00:00.005+08:00

Oooopsss....
tripped....
Walk
Walk
oooppss...
Slipped.....
Walk Walk
TAlk Talk
ooppps....
slipped again....
uh-oh....
You know what that means.
I'm getting *coughcoughcough*

Why is this keep on happening to me?

B-Hay

This afternoon, went to church and saw Nie Nie. Wahloa....she've grown thin. She's with her new hubby. Hahaha......Anyway, I missed her actually. So psyched to see her AND MY HOPIA! Unfortunately, there's no hopia but I got her wedding souvenir and I think a stuff toy. After I met her I went straight to rehearsal....Man my body is aching like what. I need massage!! I'm so exhausted after hours and hours of rehearsals. My voice was breaking and its becoming more hoarse. This afternoon, I saw Pao. They were really back! Then we chatted a bit, its been a while. He never change. O Pao etoh na update ko.

Right now, we're in Jonana!! house singing karaoke. Having a blast! I think Nie nie and hubby coming too. So now I'm listening to them singing and waiting for my turn. Haha!!
Can't stop singing!! When we were going home TO THE LRT, ON THE TRAIN, ON THE ROAD. I kept on singing non- stop!! You probably guessed that I'm drunk.

And the answer is..........
CORRECT!!
Crap Crap Crap........
Why is this keep on happening to me?

Now, Here's some realizations.
1) Top 3 Reasons (that I could think of) why in the world am I drunk?

Ans: 1. I ate.....or drink too much chocolate.
(oooohhh....Chocolate sounds good right now)

2. I'm exhausted.....LET"S PARTYYYY!!!!!
(1,2,3. uno, dois, treis....I know you want me. You know I want cha!!)

3. I'm having toooooo much fun that I drunk myself.
Driving people crazy by laughing their heads out.
While having "FUN" seeing me drunking myself.
(Don't know if there's such a word as "drunking"....ah what the heck)

2) Top 3 Reasons Why in the world I can't stop myself from being drunk?

Ans: 1. Because I LOOoooove CHOCOLATE!!
(Where's my Chooccooolaate!?!?)

2. You can't prevent me from being exhausted.
You ask me to sit down for a while you'll see me dozing off.
( I don't even think that's counted as being exhausted)
But I can bet you that when you wake me up.
I"M A HAPPY DRUNK B-HAY!!!!!!
LET"S PARTAAAYYY!!!!!!

3. You dare to kill the "JOY". I-WILL-SUCK-YOUR-BLOOD!!
and give you a HICKEY! you you....FUN SUCKER!

So there you have it TOP 3 REASONS why blah blah blah blah........

I'm outta here.

It's time for my..."Sayang sayang"

2009-08-07T23:20:00.003+08:00

Oh just great....

I have 4 personalities...

Oh wait....

Now...

I have 5 PERSONALITIES...

Sayang sayang~~....

Smooth.

B-Hay

This morning we had National Day Celebration. Same old singing and dancing stuff. I just can't wait for the NDP performers to dance. At the same time me and N&N can laugh, sing and move with them. HAha!! Anyway, had loads of fun.
Right after that we had a carnival made from the sec 1 and 2. Most of them were begging us to visit their stalls. Eventually, we didn't bother either and stayed watching street netball. Sec 3 were losing to sec 4! ...Crap.
I thought they were good but they've got dumped. No offense.

Right after that. Me and my sayang started playing tennis ball. Just passed it around and run wherever it goes. Luckily, it didn't went into the pond. Then we went to the studio and practice some stuff. It was fun we sang and danced around. AWESOME......
We played around and around. Unfortunately, the balloon we played hit here and there had popped right into my face. It just EXPLODE! Oh....jeez....I thought I was going to be blind. Dramatic scene came next. Everyone was gathering around me with their concern faces. Looking at their faces, I just walked back a bit and try to have fun with them again.

Following, we went out and eat. Also to this red box. We ate at Taman Jurong at spoon fork....fork spoon. Either one. Then right after our meal we chatted. I got soooo bored, I started messing around with my food. Adding all the chillies from every ones plates and put into my chicken rice soup bowl. Mixed it and add in an egg from umbrellas table. Then "ms frequency" noticed it and dared me to drink it in one go. For 5 bucks. HAH!
First taste....."HEY!" nothing much happened. So after few re-considerations. I took a swigged and nothing happened. MAn....Few sec. later my lips, tongue, throat was burning like fire. I wanted to scream, "ms frequency" gave me 10 bucks for me to buy water. I was running, swearing and crying on my way to the drink stall. Mean while ALL OF THEM WERE LAUGHING. GREAT. Luckily, the other three didn't see it they were so engrossed talking to each other in the other table. I was jumping up and down waiting for the lady to serve me. I drank the whole bottle within a min. without stopping. I just realized sayang took a video of the whole thing and I can't bare watching it.

My stomach was churning and I'm so bloated. The three came back and watched the video. They were laughing at it. Right after that blazing hot...uugghh. We hang around a bit and "leypak" something...pronounce like (lakepark). We went to Jurong Park and played in the playground with my sayang. Next thing I knew, we were talking and talking and jumping and laughing all the time. I told her my story and she told her story. Fun actually. There are things I really shouldn't mention to her but I did.

After, we went to McDonald and ate our dinner. We chatted. Whatever I say, they will laugh. What ever they say. I said,"what?" ....they laugh. They have this frequency between sayang and "ms frequency". That I just can't get it...They still laugh. Really, weird. Then my sayang always comparing me with one of her friends which was with us at the early part. Up up there. I kept on bragging on and on that I am not like her. We're 2 different people. She's very persistent. With just one personality, it just went up to 5 personalities. Excellent. Now, I have 5 split personalities. UUgghh...So anyway, I started calling them my "sayang" and "ms frequency". For some reason that I'm too lazy to say cause its already passed midnight. ZZzzzz.....
I"m Through......

I'm feel like a tail.

Just behind.

Don't talk much.

I'm like a statue.

You feel conscious.

When I'm around huh.

Pretty obvious.

UUggghhh......

Why?

B-Hay

NIght of our lives

2009-07-31T22:18:00.003+08:00

This is our night.

Give all that we have.

All we're going to have.

Feel it until your hearts going to explode.

Just sway to the music.

Look straight.

Look at the camera rolling.

Look at all the hundreds of people watching.

SMILE.

BIG SMILE.

Look at the camera.

And.

SING!

B-Hay

Last Monday, right after CCA. Went straight home. Got a show to do. My mom was rushing me to get dressed immediately cause we're late. Put this on and that on. Get down to the car to The Chevron. When the show was about to start. Everyone in the back stage was nervous. Feel the intensity creeping through your skin.

It's not like I've never done this before. I've done this almost dozen times before. Yet, you know the feeling. Being infront of what like hundred audience. Felt like its always been your first time. The other groups were already performing. While the others at the backstage having a photo taking. Did it suddenly felt cold around us. All of us were looking at each other. Next thing we know we were up on the stage and singing. The crowd went wild. Clapping. For us.
Get this thing over with.

Finally, its the finale part. We did this some kind of dramatic thing. Finally, it's over. We all took photo taking of all the performers and audience. It was really fun. We're going to have this again on September 20 I think. Can't wait! That one will be EVEN MORE GRAND! Even more audience estimating almost thousand. HOPING. All of us were like celebrities. Photo here, Photo there. Run here. Run there. I"m exhausted!!

BUT NO!! NOooo!! I have to do the poster thingy all over again. Oh jeez..... I slept around 1.30 am. It's a school night. The following morning, I'm drifting to sleep in class once I arrived.
FANTASTIC!

You looked at me.

Like you've never seen me before.

Well I've tried.

You know what I mean.

Finally.

What I've been waiting for has arrived.

Thanks to you.

You made it come true.

Hoping I'm not afraid anymore.

Yet Its still there.

The feeling that is.

You've told me this before.

Hundred of times?

Me?

Come nearer I'll whisper it to you.

You'll feel cold all over.

B-HAY

I hate directing, trains, fast movement, slow movement

2009-07-31T21:48:00.003+08:00

Did the story had already begin?

Or

Yet to be begin?

B-Hay

Let me tell you a story.....Loooong long time ago there was a rabbit and a tortoise......Okay okay. Gosh got to stop that.
"Quit it, MAMA!!"

It's been a long time i've done this, too busy with school and stuff. I've been sleeping a lot since I've come home from school. Few days ago, I started loosing appetite, don't know in the world why? I felt soooo hungry yet no appetite to eat. PERFECT. Just plain perfect.
I better lose weight from this.

So recently we had this advertisement competition to go to. My job was to create a poster to suit our campaign. Its A LOT OF HARD WORK! First you have to take the photo which one of the teachers helped me. Oh yeah! Not to mention he always looked at me in a blur face. I have no idea why? He just looked at me with a "what?" on his face. I told him what I wanted yet giving me a "what?" face. Not helping. I guess his face meant to be that way. I don't blame him.
MOVING ON.....

So just last week, we photo shoot in school. It wasn't what I imagined it would be. We just did it. BAM! There goes the photo with 2 students faces and a teachers back. Let me tell ya directing is H-A-R-D!!
You have to do this and that. Run here. Run there.
Crack your brain for answers.
Now I know what ms April felt directing us.
HAHA!!

Took me 5 times to edit the poster. It made me stayed up until midnight right after our show at the Chevrons last mon. night. I drifted to sleep dozen of times while doing it.

So we went for the presentation. At first it was going smoothly, quite fast. Like one of the teacher told us. Like a train moving faster and faster. Then when it was my turn the train suddenly slowed down. Oh no....It's going to stop!!
Right after me, the train started moving faster again...... I hate trains.

Experience. Experience. That's all I wanted!
No entry. No entry. SO WHAT!

-DONE-

You went away...

Keep thinking it's done.

Didn't you realize?

There's a tissue stuck to your butt.

Bet you think its done huh?

Pretty weird, huh?

B-HAY

Expect the unexpected.

2009-07-15T17:45:00.006+08:00

I glimpse at you.

You glimpse at me.

I caught your glimpses.

You caught my glimpses.

How I wish it will be longer.

Sooner...

It became a stare.

I stared very hard.

You stared back.

How I wish it will be even more longer.

B-Hay

Yesterday, I borrowed this book from **Pikachu** the title is 'To forget you'.
By the time I read the little summary behind...I felt like i wanted to cry.
Wanna know why? Cause it reminds me of you.
It's by Low Kay Hwa, I think some local writer.
When I got home I read this book and stayed in my room. At the same time I was not feeling pretty well. For the whole afternoon....Oh crap! I was crying more than you will ever know! This is the most saddest and romantic book I've ever read. I would really recommended to anyone. In the end, I don't know what happened to the superman he got knocked down towards the tree when he was riding his motorcycle. He was going to superland to meet superwoman for the first time after they broke up 6 months ago. Jeez....so sad.

Habang binababasa ko toh. Ikaw lang iniisip ko.
Sus ginuo! Mas lalo pa ako umiyak!
Sus ginuo!

Anyway, in the evening i forced myself to go for rehearsal for our presentation. By the way, its in 2 weeks time. So far we've got the blocking on stage and all the movements while singing. Pretty psyched about it. All I have to do is to memorize the song. So we got into the place and next thing I know I saw you and your sister came. I'm not expecting it to happened. But now I guess we should expect the unexpected after all. We rehearsed the songs and also done with recordings. Mean while the rest of the people were rehearsing I was playing with JJ she's so adorable. Then you came along holding her. Yet that didn't stopped me from playing with her. I glimpsed at you and you caught me looking at you.
Out of unexpected circumstances, I started staring at you. Just everytime I did that you will also stared back. Gustong gusto kong ibalik ang lahat. Where it used to be, you know? =(
You started talking to me....but not those conversation types.
Not in my self-consciousness I hit you back with my lyrics paper. Then I thought back, "why did I do that?". Then you looked at me and walked away with JJ.
Smooth move.......

So far we've got the whole rehearsal done. Soon we finally got home. I felt so sick so I went to bed early. At around midnight, I heard my phone rang but I didn't bother reaching for it. I don't have enough strength to stand up. My cell phone was 2 meters away from me for crying out loud. So I just slept but through out the night I heard my cell phone kept on ringing all night long. I don't even bother to answer it. I am so sick........

The following morning when I woke up I took my phone to check who was it.
Then it was you......For the past 7 months. This was the first time you texted me again. I fell to my knees, I guess I'm still too weak.....
But I don't care. I texted back and prayed.

Did you know I brought my dimples and mole to the rehearsal?
So childish.....I know.
While traveling in the car I was hugging it.
I always did.
When I'm falling sick.
While I'm sick.
I'm always hugging it.
I don't know why?
It's cause of you.

Extracted from ' To forget you'

By: Low Kay Hwa

'to forget; To remember you'

'When you fall in love, you get controlled by your emotions; You will do the silliest and stupidest thing. You follow what your emotions tell you to do. And your emotions are controlled by the person you love deeply. Your lover's emotion are controlled by you.

Basically, when you are in love, you only laugh because he laughs, or you only cry becuase she cries. Emotions are no longer controlled by humans, but by the love showed.
The power of love: So strong that you wonder hopelessly what had happened to you.

Personal Fairytale.......

2009-07-11T23:58:00.003+08:00

I'm trying to walk normally.

Trying not to stumble.

Nor tripped over.

I wanted to catch up.

Yet, I'm being left out.

Everything seemed so normal

Yet, so awkward.

B-Hay

After church we went to JJ's birthday for dinner. We gave her this really really cute teddy bear. I really wanted it but JJ comes first. Anyway, I have my dimple and mole by my bed every night. If you know what I mean.

When we gotten into the blocks we saw my brother picking us up cause we don't know where was it. We got there there's less people let since it's already pretty late. Awww JJ was in her stroller and she still looks cute. My gosh..... I gave her a barney gift wrapper with the very cute teddy bear inside. Then Straight away I went to the food section and picked out spaghetti and juicy tender hot dog. I miss it so much. So I've finally met his sisters and brother. Cousin and Titas'. They were actually pretty nice. Then I think one of his sister or was it cousin? Anyway, planning a facial on me , my mom and bros. To sum it all up. Practically, my whole family. We ate and talked and laughed. All those stuff.
Then they all started going home. We bid goodbye.

Then I'm the only one left behind with the whole celebrants family. My mom went up to their house to use the bathroom. All of the sudden HE came passing me by. I swear I froze up there few a moment. Then I realized I really missed him. Then his sister came up to me and even INTRODUCED HIM TO ME. Like we don't know each other at all. I wanted to say ,"hi" but he just blurted out "tumupad ka?" . I mumbled, "yes". My gosh....I looked so ridiculous!
To be honest when I saw him I thought to my self I should have come along with my mom. Yet, at the same time I'm still glad I didn't.

What's more awkward was that he was even being asked by her mom to bring us to the bus stop. My mom picked up one plastic bag full of food, while I wanted to picked up the other. He just grabbed the plastic bag that I wanted to carry and walked along with my mom. His carrying my load......awkward.
I am so quiet while walking and both my mom and him were talking and talking. Mean while I'm tailing behind them and stumbling along the rocky path.
All the while they were talking I wished that my mom would disappear for a moment and left with just the 2 of us.

HAH!! LIKE THAT'S GONNA HAPPENED!

My gosh....this is so personal. So we reached the bus stop boarded the bus home.

-STORY ENDED-

Not much of a Fairytale huh?

But I can dream can't I?

My life is full of equations.

2009-07-11T13:50:00.005+08:00

Drowning down.

From my sleepless nights.

Solving an equation.

(Sleepless nights) + (Hateful dreams) = Y-O-U

Which is also.

Equivalent to.

More Tea Bags...

(Equation solved) = ( Math A1)

B-Hay

Right after I got home. I'm soooo tired. I'm planning to sleep for the whole afternoon but turned out. Using computer.

Planning = FAILED

My mom saw me being sooo exhausted and started whining about how tired i was. I should get some sleep. I better not use the computer. All those yakity yakity yap..... I'm wasn't listening carefully because my mind was drifting away. My conscious was failing me. How could you do this to me?
It all add up to more scoldings.....

(consciousness) = FAILED = More SCLODINGS

I gave it all up, and slumped back to my parents bed. I can't move and drifting to sleep while my mom was talking to me. She was so in a rush to get to church and told me not to go anymore. Yet, I forced my head to wake up and trudged towards my room and to the bathroom and dressed up. Seating at the back of the car, listening to my mp3 and drifting back to sleep. So many equations to do....

Walking up to church, I suddenly felt so unworthy. Like I don't belong here anymore. Feelin' like what's the point of coming here when you're not worthy.
Maybe...That's the reason why I forced myself to go to church that day.
Being unworthy...Is to make you're self worth more than you thought you worth.

You may not understand this.
I know it's complicated.
I know i'm a bad girl.
And
I know I have to do something about this.

That's why I'm here praying. To give myself up and be worthy enough to be in front of you. I hope you'll Understand.

I got home and slumped back to me bed. Didn't even bother to wash my hand. I know how much my mom trying to enforce the rule of washing your hands once you go out. But all I cared about is to get some sleep. So I just grabbed my hand sanitizer and washed. Went back to sleep.

I hope no more equations to come, it will only make my life more complicated.
Oh yeah...Later on, It's LJ's birthday and I hope It will be fun.

Question 10:

(Y-O-U) + (M-E) = ??

So far that's the only equation that I can't solved.

Yet.

B-Hay

Hang out.....

2009-07-11T12:58:00.004+08:00

You Never Looked Back.

You thought that it's over.

Actually it isn't.

If you look back.

I'll be there.

Bet, you think it's over, huh?

B-Hay

Yesterday, I went to Jurong East Regional Library to catch up with Aini, Nadiah, and Andala.
Also to return Aini's books from Hnin Lett. Anyway, when I reached there, I really missed the smell of the library. It's like i've never been there for ages! Went downstairs to the children s corner near the stage. I saw Nadiah seating in the small children chair doing Hw. She's so tedious now adays. No idea why? I should be more like her....hmmmm....Not gonna happened.

We stayed at the library for few hours. Searching and searching for childrens books for their Gift of reading. Mean while Nadiah was whinning about going home....being hungry. Aini complaining about few people came to go book hunting for their Gift of reading. Me, Nadiah and Aini went up to eat at this Cafe Galilee...pretty expensive name huh. Their food pretty expensive too but delicious. We ate some brownies and to top it off, an ice-cream on top. hhmmm delicious.
In advance, I immediately warned them about me getting drunk in a few moments.
I could already feelin' it while Andala and Aini went up to the 4th floor. I'm seating in front of Nadiah eating. I'm urging it all in, preventing it to leaked out. I really have a weird behavior.
Nadiah started talking about why I'll always get drunk when I eat chocolate. It's because of too much sugar. She's probably right. To be honest while she was talking my mind was flying off some place else. The only thing I could remember was ".....too much sugar."
I'm now recollecting everything and that's what i've got so far.

Around 5 something we set off, leaving their Gift friends. We walked past this some kind of food stalls. Selling food of course. Andala bought some kind of a banana food thingy, a burger and a long long long stick. Which they all say its a fish meat. Fish meat? It looks like a green coloured bread stick to me. It does smelled like a fish though.
Aini bought the same thing and she gave me a bit. I started sniffing it all in and they were all like, " why are you smelling the food??!".
HEY! I'm born like that. I smell food when I'm not familiar with it. People who saw me doing it.
WILL...I swear...they WILL have the VERY SAME REACTIONS.

Puh-lease....Like they've never done it before.
Psshhh......

Out of awkward circumstances, I started mumbling none sense. Only for a few moments. I started stop talking cuase you'll never know what will come out of my mouth.

SCHUSS!!

Sometimes I hate my dream.

2009-07-06T16:20:00.004+08:00

When I woke up this morning from my drunkenness last night.
I had a horrible dream.

***You were there. We were chatting in MSN then I asked you out. We went to a mall, we were walking around. I tried to hold your hand and you let me. You were wearing you're normal t-shirt and basketball shorts. While we were walking, you have this blank stare. Like you don't even wanna be with me. It was a horrible feeling for me.

Me: are you busy?

You: Yah. I have to go somewhere.

Me: oh

Then you went away from me and went down the escalator leaving me behind. I'm staring at you while you were going away. I walked towards the exit of the mall and realized I should have asked my driver to fetch me home. I also realized that I'm wearing a very grand dress. I must have spent so much time preparing for our meet. Instead it went nowhere.

I walked around the mall and saw my friend. She asked me to go down the escalator cause she saw you there. So we went and I can't believed what my eyes saw. You were having a dinner with a girl. You were also wearing a suit and the girl was wearing a tube dress. To be honest the girl was chubby and I can't believed you changed me to some chubby girl. Yet, she looked rich. Once you saw me, you stood up and went up the stairs followed by the girl. I got hold of you hand and asked.

Me: where are you going?

You: I have some business to attend to. (walked away)

From that time on. I started crying seems like between us were finally over. I logged in to my MSN and I saw you're message beside your name. Saying.

"I want to........(.......)........"

I don't know what does that mean.****

I woke up and I realized my face was wet. They were tears. Even in my dreams my crying never stops. I miss you so much.
I have to do something about this and I can't let that happened.

Pretty weird dream really and it hurts.

The seriousness of being drunk.....Part 2

2009-07-06T16:01:00.003+08:00

Continuing....

While we were waiting for the elevator, Ate Jona started singing and I started singing along.
Even inside the elevator, I started singing,

"igiling giling
igiling giling
igiling mo para matunaw ang taba"

Then they were all dancing along. There were me, Phoebe, Ate Grace, Ate Jona and ka Rodel.
Ate Grace and ate Jona hataw sa dancefloor.
When we arrived at the ground floor, I started changing the song.
to

"Di ko kayang tanggapin na mawawala ka na
sa akin napakasit ng marinig na aywa mo na saakin....."

THen they were all laughing and messing around.
Song change to.

" Ay Ay Ay pag-ibig,
nakakakilig parang sine
bawat eksena...."

change it to April Boy songs......
It was hilarious!!!
They were all laughing their hearts out.
Then changed into Careless whisper then they danced like a macho dancers.
HAHAHA!!!!

While we were walking towards the LRT. I can't stop singing. They can't stop laughing.
Then my phone rang it my mom I immediately put my self to silence and answered it. They were all laughing with my reactions. She started interogating me....Qn I can't aswer I quickly handed over to my brother. It's much more safer that way. I started singing again.
When we boarding the train, I'm still singing and they were still laughing. They can't telling me that I'm drunk. That will never stop me, as long they were still laughing I'm still carry on.
Then Phoebe's phone rang and its her father.
I don't know what's gotten into me and suddenly blurted out.
"You're safe with us".....My actions were like a drunkard man.
She told her father that she's with me and my brother.
She put down the phone and said, "tinamaan ng magaling".
We are so dead.
I started talking none sense.

Me: Don't worry you're safe with us.

Them: (laugh)

Ate Jona: Lagot ka sa tatay nyan.

Me: eh..at least masaya naman sya. Saya mo noh.

Them: (laughing)

Me: saya noh. Next time sama ka ulit.

Them: (laughing)

Ate Jona: etoh nagyaya pa o. (laughing)

So that was about it. We brought Phoebe home, My stomach still hurts and I finally got into a comfy bathroom. Then I sleep in.

The seriousness of being drunk.....Part 1

2009-07-06T14:33:00.005+08:00

Crap!

It hurts....

I can't move....

I wanna get out of this suck fest.

I want to...to...

I want to.

BREAK FREE!

Woohooo....

Everybody its karaoke time.

Break it down y'all

B-Hay

Last night I had THE - BEST time. Last night I got real drunk due to my hurts and pains. I just can't take you know. Next thing I knew I'm singing non-stop. my friends were tellin' me that i'm already drunk but actually I'm not. REALLY I"M NOT!! HAHA!!! see? I"m not drunk. HAH! just kiddin'.

Alright start from the beginning. Yesterday, we went to church. Inside the function hall they were having a seminar about H1N1 preventions and stuff. So I just listened. I totally forgot about the processional song that we were supposed to be memorizing. Crap! So rushed into it and try to memorize it. All together there were 2 languages needed to memorize. So far i'm only on the first language. I'm runnin' out of time! All the other choir members were already finishing up with the 2nd song. Oh jeez!! Later on we will be havin written exam on it to test if you really had it memorize. I'm so screwed. Through this intense plight a voice came crashing into me. It's my best friend, looking at him singing the song. Really brought out alot of memories that I miss a lot. Anyway, When the practice started it's already 4pm = the possibility of not having the exam.
Wooohoo!!
And it actually worked, thanks for the H1N1 seminar.
Sorry po no offence po......

The exam was posponed till next week = more time to make the song perfect.

Right after the practice we went down stairs meeting up with some choir friends. We were supposed to be waiting for 10 min. for another practice for the Anniversary of the church, we have our own numbert production. When we sang the song it was incredibly NICE...more than nice. Its..Its...Fascinating, excellent. All those great big big words that describes that song. Even though, it is quite high pitch song, yet we will do our best to show that we can do it. Our song for the local anniversary were even much more higher pitch than this. Really. So what's the difference.

Again, Right after that. We went downstairs, me and my brother. Went up to ate Grace then we talked. Whether where do we go now. Turned out to be they wanted to go to Orchard and its raining heavily. The bus stop is a long long way out. Still that doesn't stop them. Ate Grace called ate Jona where were they and they were in Orchard. She kept on tellin her to go to her house and stay for a while cause later on we will go to ate Lanie's house for dinner. I shouted at the speaker that I wanted to see also the careless whisper by Hayden koh and Halili.
Out of my self- consciousness, I started dancing like a stripper in front of her.
She started laughing hysterically and pushed me.
Worse, It's just outside our church and people were watching. Embarrassing.

While we were walking towards the bus stop with our umbrellas open. Ate Grace started asking me about my crushes. UUhhhhh.....worse qn. It only reminds me of him.

The conversation kind of turned out like this. Not quite remembering what
exactly the words are. So what the heck.

G: So are they saying to when will you have a boyfriend?

Me: Yah....well, they say after I graduated. But I don't if its gonna work.

G: Ohh...So you do have a crush?

Me: Of course....(how to translate "hindi naman mawawala yun eh")

G: ( surprised)....

Me: (started thinking about him again after all this months kept thinking his out of my life but actually his still inside me).....Yupp.

Out of weird circumstances we started talking about girls. To be honest for me when I see handsome and cute boys. I will really looked at them. Yet, when a beautiful and cute girl passes me by my eyes would wonder off somewhere else.
Pretty weird.

When we arrived at Orchard we went to lucky plaza to meet up with ate Jona, Turned out to be she's with ka Rodel and Ka Aris. We went up to the 2nd floor and ate at Happy V former Jolly V. The food there was fantastic! It reminds me of Jollibee in the philippines. Missing it so much. Right after that we went to Fajar where ate Lanie lives. We waited at the Mcdonald and chatted a little bit. Around 30 min later, they arrived and they were with ka bro. a.k.a. Ka Allan, Phoebe (how did she able to go out with her strict parents? I wonder). We walked to her house. We ate and sing at wow magic sinc. All our scores were zero cause the mic is not working. But we all had fun. I have the urged to listened to the song careless whisper. But they won't let me. We sang to some happy songs and sad songs. Once they got too much of my powerful beggings they finally gave in . They allowed me to sing careless whisper. Dance with as well. Hah! We were all like drunk people. It's late at night and we were still wide awake singing our voices out. By the time we're going home, I started having stomach aches.
And if I have a really painful stomach you don't ever wanna messed up with me. Cause I really will get really really drunk. Now, that's really the reason why I got so drunk last night. It's not because I drank some alcohol or something. By the smell of it makes me sick, worse, if I drank it.

Doing part 2. This entry was just toooo long.

You are not alone....

2009-06-28T20:19:00.005+08:00

I'm smilin'

Can you see? Masakit.

I'm happy.

Like you always sees me. napakaskit.

Behind those smiles.

A girl so fragile. sobrang sakit.

B-Hay

I love this song....This describes everything the fragile girl wanted to say.

"You Are Not Alone"
By: Michael Jackson

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

The shockers of reality.....it stings.

2009-06-26T23:34:00.005+08:00

We may looked eye to eye.

We may shed tears.

We may have different reasons.

We may have different views.

But.

Only one thing will always be the same.

Missing each other.

B-Hay

This morning I logged in to MSN and I found out that Michael Jackson died 2 pm something in Los Angeles (5 am something Singapore time), Thursday. I was shocked.... Jeez. He died? of cardiac arrest. I thought he died cause he melted under the sun. Or too much bleach in his body and its eating him ALIVE! Unfortunately, he didn't... bummer. =P It's all over the news, Entertainment tonight, TFC...Maybe, channel 5 too. Didn't watch it. We drove to church this afternoon its in the radio too. Playing his songs.
Pretty shocking eh?

What's more shocking I heard in the radio there's a news about a 2 -yr old Chinese boy smokes a packet of cigarette per day. SHOCKER!! He started smoking at 18 months old and he learned it from his father. HIS OWN FREAKING FATHER!! His father was the one who taught him because i think that he think the child had some issues. To shut the kid up, the father can't think of anything sensical! He taught the 18 month old boy to smoke! Come on man! Parents should be the one telling the kids NEVER to smoke. YET, this father taught his child to smoke. What did your parents taught you, huh?? (referring to the father) Come on, be stupid some place else.
A complete shocker.

EVEN MORE MORE SHOCKING!!
I HAVE A FREAKING ADMIRER!!
I don't even know this guy. I just found out from my mom's friend. She told me that the mom met up with her. The mom of the guy talked about me and asked her to some kind of asked about me to the guy. Very hard to explain. Anyhow, My mom's friend told my mom and my mom didn't even tell me a single thing. To be honest she won't tell me those stuff even if i try. So i begged and begged my mom's friend to tell me. She won't budge. Need some back-up here mafia bros. Hehee....Just kiddin'
Mmmmmm......I wonder who could it be??
Let's just see..who owns up.

Oh yeah, another thing. My friend a girl just told me that she's felling in love with me. Cause of my beauty. Muhahaha....

Face the reality.
Reality hurts.
No matter what, you have to do it.
So now.
I'm facing the reality.
It stings.
yet, nice
cause.
I'm standing here.
Thinking about.
Du und mich.

B-Hay

Hakuna matata.......No worries......

2009-06-25T00:37:00.006+08:00

Imprintment....
You imprint your self to me.
With 2 straws in just 1 drink.
With only 1 drinker.
A habit that you imprinted to me.
It can never ever erase.
EVER.

B-Hay

This evening, me, my brother and mom went to church but it turned out we don't have to. So I just searched for my brothers and talked and talked as we walked to the car. Well, not actually to my brothers but to Dannah because she was begging me to buy her a scientific calculator. I was thinking I got another calculator at home that I'm not using then I would give it to her. Made her pay for it. Will that work? =P Smart move huh? I still refused to give her one.....I bid her goodbye very loudly...i swear VERY LOUD so that my best friend could hear it. He was walking to the opposite direction. But I guess he didn't hear it. =(
But I just let go of it. No worries.
While in the car me and my brothers were messing around with the sun roof to open it up real wide. So that we can stick our heads out. When my dad came to the car, he scolded us for playing a fool. He re parked the car near the church and while waiting for my older brother. My 3rd brother were begging my dad to get him a new cell phone cause his contract was already over 3 days ago. He didn't even realized it. Swell. The talk were revolving around cell phones , blackberry, O2, M1.....all that stuff. I couldn't even care less. I was just listening to them. Then my mind would fly off somewhere else. As we drove home we talked and talked. Until a big revelations came. About my brother always running away from chores. He was always in the bedroom playing computer then if my mom came and searching for him he would hide inside the cabinet. I caught him once or twice before. He is so big yet he could still fit in in the cabinet.......O-o
And stealing coins from my dad's pocket. I caught him loads of times then after he did that he still have the courage to asked my dad for another coins.
Smart fella let me tell ya.
My other brothers were against him too ...it was hilarious.
Now my mom found out everything about it.
Also his hide out and how he mysteriously disappear from his bed room.

After some arrangements, we went out and eat in the nearest Mr Teh Tarik since its the only place open late at night. Actually, I dreaded to go there. Just because of one....ONE!! incident. It was so stupid. Too lazy to tell the details...maybe next time. Luckily, when we got there there were less people and the man was not there. Great relief there.
Me and my brothers ordered up roti pratas and drinks. We ate and ate until we drop. I'm so full!!
Anyway, I'm staying late right now because I'm waiting for something....Or was it someone?
Not you pao.....
I'm all alone in the living room with the tv on. Watching Timon and Pumba and talking about hakuna matata for the next generation....what?
Still no sign of something or someone.

But remember the song.
"HAKUNA MATATA" not "HANNAH MONTANA"
it means.
"NO WORRIES"
It will all come back.
He'll come around.

Lost and found.....Let's get LOST!!!

2009-06-23T21:17:00.004+08:00

Why am I such a coward.

I looked at you.

I wanted to talk to you.

Inside my head.

I'm screaming like a lunatic.

I scurried away like a mouse.

B-Hay

This afternoon, I went to Moelc, Bishan to borrow German books. FYI, I dreaded to go there sooooo MUCH!!! Well, maybe not if only my best friend would accompany me. =( Unfortunately, my best friend seemed unavailable for quite a while and I'm already missing him. So anyhow, I went while its freakin' raining!! Luckily, I brought an umbrella for protection. I boarded the MRT train and listening to my music.All of the sudden there is this group of boys about my age went up in front of me and started fooling around. They were laughing like a lunatic. I swear. Then one of them was facing the door then the other went up to the guy, get a hold of the guys' head and banged it on the door. BANG!! My gosh! It got to hurt....Then the other were laughing. I was minding my own business when one of the boys came up the guy (who just got his head banged....great migraine there.) and kind of kicked him. I have no idea where but the guys' bending down covering his *ahem*. So you probably know where....OUCH! Eventually, my brief of entertainment ended when they departed at Sembawang. AAwwww.... So I arrived at the LC and its deserted. I walked inside the gate then the guards started shouting, one man with a bike doing some arm signal on me then the female guard in the canteen were shouting then man with the bike started shouting. I can't make out what in the world are they talking about. All of them were shouting. It seemed like they don't want me there. If only I could tell them. " So do I...I don't ever wanna meet you people either. I don't even wanna go back to this crappy place ever again." Then I heard "GIRL!!" I looked everywhere and in the counter I saw nobody. I looked over the counter and saw the Indian guard. Man, his short....No offense. I went up the library and looked for the books. I handed it over to the lady in the counter and she started to interviewed me.

Lady: What's your school? I have to do this again. I never update my computer then all the data lost...*sigh*.

Me: Yuan Ching Sec. *smile*

Lady: Yuuuaannn cchhiinnggg sseeeccc..... *while typing* What's your class in your school?

Me: 3E1

Lady: Thhrreee EEeeeee Ooonneeee...* while typing* Yuan Chin sec. That one in jurong?

Me: *crap I don't even know how to answer. I don't even know where is it resides to.* uuuuhhh.....Behind the Lake side MRT.

Lady: Lake side ah. Very far. Like 1 hour ride.

Me: Yah....That's why I don't want to go to school. *actually I mumbled it. I guess she didn't heard it*

Lady: ok. Here you go. Happy reading. Take care. *smile*

Me: ok. bye. *smile and leave*

I have to get out of there. I started to feel nausea. Damn. My stomach started churning. Must be my thing. I tried out this new MRT station in Bishan. I went down the escalator and up to the ticket booth. I just followed the signs to NORTH - line train. Then I ended up in one HUMONGOUS PLACE and I don't know where the hell am I. There were escalators everywhere. There were Ups and downs. I walked and walked where my legs would carry me. All the signs were pointing up. Where up? In the ceiling? I swear I stared up the ceiling and think. Then I turned to the corner then there is this one passage and a dead end too. I looked left and right both have escalators. Damn it. Now I have to crack my brain, which one to choose and I realized. "I'm LOST....". O-o What the heck, I went up to the right side escalator. I don't care where in the world it will bring me. If I got lost again. Please please....let it bring me to heaven. Finally!!! I reached my destination. Then there is this old man started to wonder "where in the world did
you come from?" He even looked down from the escalator and scratch his head.......Funny.
That new place was soooo BIG!! It's like a huge shopping mall.....Great job for the engineers. *clap clap*.
Right after I got lost to that HUMONGOUS PLACE. I went to the library at Jurong East. Borrowed 2 books and left. I really wanted to leave because my legs were wobbly, my stomach were churning. I really wanted to lie down.
I'm so Jaded.

I'm Jaded.

From the path I've been traveling.

I'm Jaded.

From the things that's hovering over me.

But I will never be jaded.

When it comes to you.

Wanna know why?

Cause you're my source of energy.

B-Hay

My times of enjoyments.......

2009-06-22T22:26:00.013+08:00

I can't get you out of my head.

I'm losing my mind.

AAaaaahhh!!

THe horror.

The horror!!

B-Hay

This afternoon, my parents and me went out. We went out to pick up my brother from the airport.
So my dad drived until Eunos and then I realize we were not heading to the airport but to some car merchandise places. We parked and my parents started checkin' out some car tyres. That place was too stuffy and it's very hot. So I sat down in the bench outside the shop and watch 2 men. Putting the rubber tyres on the metal rim, I watch them over and over again. I actually found it fascinating. I have no idea why. Anyway, I went inside the shop and I'm astounded to see walls and walls of metal rims for cars.....

So we went around and round the shop and took some pictures using my cell phone. Hope nobody sees it. =P My mom saw this metal rim and I kind of like it too....

So moving on, So we went outside and there were MORE tyres. Man, tyres are everywere!!

While I was sitting on the bench outside I kind of miss the streets of the Philippines. I felt like I'm there. Then I found this Alleyway that I kind of realized is quite nice for pictorial for different tastes. Even with the tyres with it....

Maybe, few arrangements and it will suit perfectly. I kind of like dark alleyways...If you know what I mean. HAhaha....JOKE! So right after that we went back to the car and I'm telling you we have a looooong stretch to walk.....By the time we arrived at the car, I'm already sweating...

See? I told you so. Our car is straaaiiiigghhtttt in the end of this loooong stretch of cars. I'm exhausted!! So we went around the place and you never get to beleived of what I see at the back of the building.....IT'S FULL OF CRAP CARS!! At first I didn't get to take the pictures. So my dad went around the place again so that I could take pictures. See for yourself.

Look at those wrecked cars!! It was AWESOME!! I never see rows of wrecked cars before.
Oh yeah! Not to mention their multiple car parks is freaking high. So when I saw the entrance, It freaked me out cause look at this...

It's like your going straight to heaven. Hehehe....Like there's nothing in there. Car park to heaven if you may prefer. I realized, How aweshum can this place get?? Plus when we were near the exit we saw this 2 vintage cars. IT WAS OUT OF THIS WORLD....

So after that awesome sightseeing. We went straight to the airport. At the car park we saw this entrance with the long metal bar moving up and down was broken down. Some cars must be very aggresive and broke the metal bar. Whoa...Take it easy man. HAH! Once I stepped inside the airport, I started to feel hungry. So I asked my dad for some cash so that I can eat to this small restaurant in the airport. Their meal is quite expensive but my dad allowed me to eat, so what the heck. Might as well not ruined the moment. I ate this Spaghetti with chicken ham and it cost me - I mean my dad $11.80. Tasted great by the way even though its quite bland. Hey, I'm very hungry. You give me anything to eat, I will found it delicious. Just as long its FOOD and EDIBLE.

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While waiting for my brother me and mymom stumble across this man wearing Wowowee Jacket. I always wanted one. Wowowee is a very popular game and entertainment show in the philippines and they will give you the jacket if the host came up to you in the audience or your the one playing the game. It's really a very entertaining show. You better watch it. So I pointed to my mom to show her the jacket and she was surprised. So all the while I felt like I'm stalking the man just to get a snapped 2 pictures!! I'm telling you its a hard work. Me and my mom sneaked up behind the man, then I would asked my mom if my brother arrived yet. Then I snapped and snapped with my cell phone. Swell. I hope I won't get arrested for this. =P

So we went outside, where my dad is... of course in the smoking area. And showed him the pictures. He told us that he saw him before. He was at the smoking area too. My dad wanted to ask him if he knows Willie Revillame but he didn't unfortunately. We headed back inside and now there were dozens of people arriving. Unlike, when we arrived it was almost totally deserted except for some employees of course. So we saw my brother and headed back to the car. My brother took out CD of Willi Revillame and Jed Madela. My mom was so eager to listen to Willi Revillame songs ( by the way its the songs from the show), my dad helped her to popped up the cd to the audio and we listen as we went home.

" Igiling giling igiling giling
igiling mo para matunaw ang taba
igiling giling igling giling
hayaan mong mata nila ay lumuha
............"

When that song started to play my mom started dancing at the front seat and my dad started singing along. Probably, typical teenagers would find it embarassing or ridiculous but for me I found it hilarious. Not because of embarrassment or what but becasuse I'm actually enjoying myself too. The song was catchy man.... So as we went to church ( changed of destination) my mom was dancing ( actually just flinging her arms all around and tried to move her butt. Quite hard move actually because of seat belt.) and dad singing. Me? well singing too. =P
When we arrived at church we dropped off my brother because of some meeting. We went home right away. Oh-my-gulay. I'm exhausted telling all this stories. I got to eat ice cream from the philippines, flavour makapuno (coconut) and ube (don't know whow to translate).
So its "MAGNOLIA TIME!!!"

Babuuuyy~~~!!!

My Unfortunate events........

2009-06-21T18:28:00.011+08:00

I wanna talk to you.
But you went away.
I looked for you.
You're no where to be seen.
I realized.
You evaporated in thin air.
Nothing but hallucination.

B-Hay

Yesterday, we went to west coast, for socializing. I bet its boring cause my bros. and some friends are not gonna be there. Swell. So we arrived at the bbq pit and saw like 10 people there. great. For the past 3 hours, the only thing I did was sit, stare, drink, walk.....and being drowned by the bore fest. But then he came with his parents, hoping to get a chat with him. Apparently, his too busy taking care of his little sister. I just sat around playing my music with my guitar. Then I asked Gerald where is the playground. It's in the far end of west coast. Excellent. For another 30 min. I sat, drink, eat,play my music, doing pourly nothing. Until, the time that he had to leave. I'm guessing his having a game and ended up no conversation there. I didn't even know that his coming for socializing cause they were in different group already. So I felt so ridiculously sad when my best friend left and I didn't even get to say goodbye. 15 min later, I came looking for my parents...they're GONE!! I can't see them anywhere. So I told some of the adults there that my parents left me behind and I left them so worried. I called my parents and they were on their way to church and they will come back right after the service. Now, I'm independent. Anyway, I asked Gerald, Geoffrey and Nicko as well to come along with me to the playground since they were the only one I could relate to.....Guess what. ALL the little kids tagged along with us. Now, I'm like a baby sitter since I'm the oldest in the group. Smooth move. I shouted at them to stop running around. I ran after them until I ran out of breath. They were so WILD!! Too hyper for me. At last!! we arrived at the playground safe and still alive. Unfortunately, it started to drizzle.....Fantastic! Can this day get any better??!! Then they all were running around the sand yelling " umuulan na!! umuulan na!!" isn't obvious?? We hurried back to the bbq pit.....All of them started running around AGAIN. No point yelling at them. I'm lethargic. When we arrived the parents were worried sake and started fussing around with their children. Giving them umbrellas or putting cloth over their head. As for me, something started bothering me and started thinking about it. Not even care about the rain pouring down on me nor getting wet. All of the sudden, his mom seemed worried about me cause i'm under the drizzle but i told her i'm ok. Yet, she took out a small hanky with a picture of winnie the pooh in it and put it over my head. It's LJ's hanky (his little sister). Thanks by the way. So we just sat there doing nothing and all the dads' were still using the bbq pit, cooking, chicken wings, sausages on stick, and some weird pig's fat something. It really looks weird. It's like they sucked the fat out of the pig and put it on stick and bbq-ed it. Everyone loves it. Nice. While I can't even imagine letting that thing touch my lips. No No...Yuck! It's getting darker now. Then all the little kids came running to me asking me to play my music. They asked me If I know Miley Cyrus and Taylor Swift songs. So I just played it and they sang along. Suprisingly, for once I'm actually having fun AND with this little kids singing along. We were jamming for a while and all the adults were enjoying watching us sing. Then again Gerald came rushing to me and said that I could use Nicole's bike. I've been dreading to use a bike for the whole afternoon. Now, it's my chance but another thought. I can't leave this kids here we were jamming. Ended up not using the bike and continue playing. Now that's a good will. We jammed until all of them went home and only left with me and G & G bros. Nicole and his mom and some other people. Me, G & G , nicole and her mom chatted for a while. Me and Nicole's mom were like Boy and Kris talk show. We were trying to turn to the G & G bros over each other and make them annoyed with each other and fight. It's really hilarious. They started spitting about each other like G got a girl friend and going to be married. While the other G is the loser. But mostly, Gerald is the target. I thought he was going to cry soon, unfortunately he didn't. Heheh.....The following hour we've got nothing left to say and just sat there chewing down on our bbq-ed chicken wings. I've been thinking a lot lately about something.

The lower part say "One love"

By the way, thanks to my bro. he gave this pretty cool T-shirt of Francis magalona. He's a rapper in the Philippines, Unfortunately, He died because of illness. So some people made his T-shirt as a tribute and it's becoming a huge hit.
I also took this pic.

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Too blurry to see

Go figure What it means.

Not forgetting for all the Dads out there.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!

I'm being targeted by a roachy!

2009-06-20T12:07:00.004+08:00

I had a dream.

It was terrible.

YOU WERE THERE!

Just kidding.

Today, I woke up at 5.15 am in the morning. Everything came crashing down on me. In the end, I fell asleep. So my cell phone rang at 50.30 am, dang it! I'm going to be late for my duty if I don't hurry up. So during my performance, I saw there's a humongous cockroach in the loft where I sat. I started freaking out!! It's crawling behind my chair. Oh-My-GULAY! I prayed and prayed to not let the roaches get near me and ruined my performance. Oh- man!! It scared the crap out of me. I wanna get out of there when I realize its beside my shoe. Darn creepy crawlies I despise them. Those weird colour,those 6 legged pests, crawls everywhere, flies everywhere,full of germs, stinky smell....crappy little roachies. I hate them. I despise them. Just one roachy came crawling to me, I swear I will jump up and down like a lunatic. So you better stay away from me. Oh yeah, not to mention, sorry to Emma** who got hit in the chin (well, I think it's the chin 'cause you're taller than me), when I got infested by Gigantic roachies. I-Am-Sorry.....wow parang si gloria lang eh. But with meaning.
After the performance I went back to check it out. It wasn't there anymore. Thank - goodness.
All the while I can't move, I can't scream, I can't even call for help. I'm stuck with this roachy fest. No Offence to the roachies.....Peace out! =)

Oh I got another one....I saw it somewhere.... (NO, its not about the roachies...those little creepy crawlies pestering me. pfft.) Oh forget it.

Takes Time to realize...that it's movie time...Apparently, you too.

2009-06-17T23:25:00.005+08:00

Every words.

Every sentences.

Every song.

That I hear from the radio.

Seems like you're singing to me.

Sing to me.

Like you used to.

I'll sing along like I used to.

Everything came back to life.

You and me.

B-Hay

First off, yesterday my cca group went out. I never really thought that we're really going to Dhoby Ghaut to watch. We went to The Cathay to watch movie. We were so lucky we even got the grand cathay cinema. Oh-my-gulay! the seats were so soft. It's like we're seating in an auditorioum, the screen is like a small stage. Anyway, the show started and the movie is 2 thumbs up. If I have more thumbs I would really put it up to. That how good the movie is but comparing to twilight movie. I'll put all my fingers up and wave it like I just don't care. The middle part of the movie was I have to say quite sad. I almost wanted to cry. I heard someone sitting beside sniffling and I asked her after the movie. She did cry.

Night came.
A dream came wafting in the air.
Entered my sleeping mind.
Trying to show me something.
The picture was in blur.
It started to come into pieces.
Everything's clear to me now.
It shows me everything.
Everything I have to know.
Everything I must not forget.
And then I realized.
There was you.

B-Hay

The chronicles of weird dream, being weird and HE'S BACK

2009-06-15T19:28:00.007+08:00

Last night,

I have a REALLY REALLY WEIRD,DISGUSTING,FRUSTRATING,YUCKY!!......dream.
I was in my parents room.
With my Brother.
And
I was playing Nintendo. DS.
Something weird happened!
I won't come into details.
It's pretty eeiiwww~~

Moving on.

So this afternoon,
he's back again.
Just like Last night.
No offense to You.

I'm Glad that your back.

REALLY.
It's been a long time.
=D

I was playing the guitar in my brother's room.

Having so-called "head-ache".
Simultaneously, I'm feeling great.

I was just doing my own.
Plucking Remix Sound
Still working on it.

For the whole afternoon,

I felt like somebody's watching me.

Weird.

Today, I wanted to run away.

BUT I CAN'T GET AWAY.

I"M STUCK AGAIN!

On that stinking chair.
Because "Someones'".
Standing in front.
Blocking me.

He's so delicious.
*AHEM*

Right now.
I'm playing with facebook games.
You can really meet new people.
Excellent.

Still he's so delicious.
*AHEM*

Just Every time.

2009-06-14T22:44:00.001+08:00

Why do you always do it.....just every time I....I....arrrgghhh!!!
Now its ruined.
I'm so.....aarrgghhh.....I can't even say it.

That's it.
I'm.
GONE.

The Girl by the window by Bynes Hayden Part 3

2009-06-12T16:03:00.005+08:00

KEVIN ART

"I know Mrs Robinson. I'm sorry. To make it up to you I will tell all the boys not to come to you're class again. Since there's "NO BALL" policy in your class," I said smart-alecky.
" You know what I mean, Mr Art. You don't have to be cynical. If you want your BALL BACK. Let me ask you again. What do I don't want in my class?" asked Mrs Robinson.
"I know, I know. No ball allowed"
"and?"
"No ball twirling"
"Great job!! (like a preschool teacher and I'm guessing, I should be like "YAY!! Where's my golden star?") Here's your ball. I don't ever wanna see that ball or any other balls for that matter in my class ever again. Are we clear?" warned Mrs Robinson fiercely
"YES,MAM"
"Since all is clear here. Excuse-moi. I have to leave before Benny Rob finishes the blueberry cup cake ." Said Mrs Robinson, c0llecting her books and files. Rushing through the door.

I chuckled to myself, knowing how Mrs Robinson can be very vicious and fierce but at the same time being hilarious. I went back to my chair to pick up my books........"Aaahh!" shrieked a sharp voice.
Books and stationary were flying everywhere on my opposite aisle of tables.
I squinted and saw something moving on the floor and I realized that it was Emma Philips sprawled on the floor covered with all her notes.

"Emma are you alright?" I asked frantically, struggling myself among the tables.
" Err...Ya, I guess" said Emma. I helped her up and picking up all her books and stationary.
"Here you go," thrusting her things back.
"Thanks," she mumbled.
She's so cute.Hold that thought. Did-I-just-thought-she's-cute?
"Umm...Bye," said Emma, walking briskly out of the classroom.
I stared at her without my conscious.
"I must be crazy," I chuckled to myself. I caught a glance at the Ginormous Clock in front of the class. I bet Mrs Robinson is very proud of it. She bought it from Japan from her last trip.
"Shoot! Sam's gonna kill me!" I sprinted my way towards the cafeteria, trying not to bother that thought. Weird, seems like impossible.

MARY CABOT

"So?" asked Sam
"Huh?" I said acting all innocent.
"The miracle? Spill it out, Mary," threatened Sam
"Well...uhhh" I was stalling my way trying to act normal. How can I tell her without looking darn ridiculous. OH-CRAP! how?
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry.I'm late" I looked up and saw Kevin rushing towards us. OH MY SAVIOR!
" What took you so long? Wait, don't tell me "NO BALL" policy again? (Kevin nodded apologetically) Why do I even bother to ask." said Sam.

I stood up and lined up for food. I have to get away from the interrogations of Sam the questionnaire. I have to clear my mind. Plus, Louie have a girl friend the head cheerleader, the most popular girl in school, Sheena Aaron. I'm absolutely sure I'm no match with her.
Stop being ridiculous Mary , he will never look at your way. My mother and his mother were best friends since we moved in. Just simply, every time they hang out. Me and Louie were always being dragged along with them. Apparently, even once Louie never talked to me, like I'm invisible to him.

I paid for my meal and took my time to reach Sam and Kevin. I sat beside Sam and ate my cheese fries. As quite as a mouse, to keep my presence unknown to Sam as much as possible. Kevin looked trouble, he kept on turning back and looking around. I wondered what was bothering him. He caught me taking glances at him. Yup, there is definitely something's going on with this guy. The silence is very unbearable.

"Can I ask you guys something?....My gosh, I can't believe I'm saying this. You guys might say I'm crazy and all but. Is there by any chance you might find...Emma Philips....cute?" asked Kevin shyly

Sam was laughing hysterically and flinging her hands up like a lunatic. Kevin started to blush and hiding her face with his hands.

"Why? Do YOU find her cute?" I asked gently.

"well, kind of," mumbled Kevin

"Oh-my-gosh!" exclaimed Sam

"Sam! can you be more supportive here." I snapped back to Sam.

" Oh jeez...I don't know why, I don't know how, I don't know when. Well, it's after geography class. But wha-...how--..." Kevin was rushing in his words. By the time he finishes he was panting really hard.

" Ohh...Seems like our little kevvy here is in love." teased Sam.
I can not helped but laughed too.

"Come on guys, be serious here," begged Kevin

"well, yeah. Now that you mentioned it. Emma does looked cute in any other way." I told Kevin.

"If I were you, I would test myself just to make sure that if I'm really into her or not." Advised Sam.

I could not agree more, I told her " that's the best advise i have ever heard from you"

" Well, thank you very much," said Sam boastfully.

Things that will make me look Stupid.

2009-06-12T15:07:00.006+08:00

I was walking through the hallway,

my head starts to spin

My stomach starts to churn

Ice cold sweat breaking in

I'm getting sweaty palms

Starts to loose vision

Everything seems a blur

I sing out loud in front of everybody

I'm getting short breaths

I want to sit down and close my eyes

I'm standing up I wanted to faint

I felt so weak to my knees

I want to cry

I'm so tired

But I must endure it

By: B-Hay

Last night was terrible! I was singing and I'm loosing it. I want to lie down and rest.
Unfortunately, I can't, I must endure it until the end.
Finally, felt better right after it was over. NOT THAT I WANT IT TO BE OVER SOON...I WAS JUST NOT FEELING WELL...I WAS...running out of excuses.
SORRY.

I hope nobody noticed it. It's gonna be a great disaster.
Even last 2 nights were even MORE TERRIBLE! I-CAN'T-SLEEP. Oh man....
I'm having more more tea bags...if you know what I mean.
I kept on tossing and turning in my bed all night long.
Then in the morning, I suddenly woke up not because of the sun but because of my parents talking so loud. It seems like they were fighting but they were actually...laughing.
It hurts my ear drums...eh kidding!
after all the yikky, yakity yap!
(Don't know what's the meaning either, just heard on tv)
I stumbled out of my bed and face the mirror and started singing.
"kiss me, out of the bearded barley
nightly, beside the green green grass
swing swing, swing in those spinning steps
You take the shoes and i'll wear that dress,
ohhh.. kiss me beneath the milky twilight
lead me out of the moonlit floor
lift your open hands
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me...."

When I peered through my door my brother was there! I was freaking out in my room because he heard my morning voice. Let me tell you it wasn't that pretty.
So I just played along for a while and took out my guitar and play the song again.

By the way, not to mention, I hate "lucky"by Jason Marz feat Colbie Caillat.
I hate it
I hate it
Don't ask me why. I just hate it. NO OFFENSE.

Today is so boring, all alone at home. No one to talk to.
I'm in distress, where is my prince!!
"come out, come out, where ever you are!"
Unfortunately, I'm guessing that my prince is playing basket ball somewhere out there...HAH joke!

Now talking about prince and all.
Decided to type out, The girl by the window by Bynes Hayden. Part 3
To occupy my wasted time.

SCHUSS!!

The girl by the window by Bynes Hayden. PART 1

2009-06-12T11:59:00.001+08:00

The girl by the window by Bynes Hayden.

MARY CABOT

One morning I woke up, I looked up and had been blinded by the beam of sunlight streaming through my window. The most favorite place of mine in whole world. I scampered myself out of bed and stared out deliberately. The sun was the king of all lights out there. There's only one thing that reminds me of the "sun" and "king". My father. He's the king and the light of the household. He's the one who made sure that everyone was safe and happy.

"You're the king, papa" I said to him 7 yrs ago. "And you're my little princess" he would replied. I missed those times. When we would seat by the window and read me stories of a great fearless prince saving a princess in distress from a fire breathing dragon. I chuckled to myself remembering his reactions to make the story came alive for me, until my mother would summoned us for tea. " Do you think my prince will come someday?" I asked him, "of course, he will come...someday." He beamed at me with a wide grin on his face.

Out of the blue, everything seemed to change. When one day my father fell ill and unable to move an inch from his bed. My mother was in great distress but unfortunately, no prince will save her this time round. My mother called for a doctor. "What is his illness, doctor?" My mother asked anxiously. The both of them had a conversation by the corner of the room. I could see my mother shaking her head vigorously and moaned "no...no..." She cried uncontrollably as the doctor left us distraught by our plight. " What's wrong with papa, mama?" My mother scooped me up and cradled me to sleep, singing to me a mother's lullaby. In an instant I fell asleep with her angelic voice. "Sleep, O Babe, for the red bee hums,The silent twilights fall.

Eeval from the Grey Rock comes

To wrap the world in thrall..."

The very next day, the house was in dead silence. I trudged myself off my bed and went out to look for my mother. I searched every nook and cranny of the house but she was no where to be seen. It was uncanny that even my father was gone! Where could they be? I bolted out of the house and inspect the garden. I was relieved to see my parents were seating in the bench gazing into the splendid sunrise over the hills beyond. I scampered my way towards them and into my mothers lap. Both of them focused on me upon my arrival and smiled, deep inside I felt like its going to be the very last time that i am going to see them smile so whole heartedly.

"Do you wanna hear another story?" asked My father. I nodded approvingly. "Once upon a time, there was a little princess named, Sarah...." He continued with hilarious actions. " And they lived happily ever after.THE END","but the king died. How can it be happily ever after?" I argued.He hesitated " You know sometimes, people come and go. When their time is up. They will go and people surrounds him must accept the fact that....It's ...time." He elaborated and smiled weakly. I stared at his watery blue eyes, digesting the explanations. "It's time for me." My father blurted out and without notification. I heard a sobbed from my mother, "what's wrong mama? why are you crying?" I asked naively. She shook her head and hugged me and my father. I could feel the sniffle from my mother and the ice cold skin of my father. It stings to my skin. I gazed up to my father and his eyes were closed. "He's sleeping" I uttered, "yes...yes he is" My mother said without any glances. She just cried even louder.

My mother's voice jerked me up to reality. "Mary! Are you already awake? You're going to be late for school. The school bus will arrive within 30 min. Hurry up!" my mother bellowed from downstairs. " I'm up!" I replied back. I rummaged through my drawer to find something to wear and stormed to the bathroom. Within 25 minutes I strides down the stares 2 at a time and grabbed my breakfast. I pecked my mother on the cheek and rushed towards the school bus. Upon seeing Louie I wondered, "when will my prince will come?"

seriouness of being PYSCHED!

2009-06-10T15:40:00.006+08:00

Today, as for normal. Always got blinded by the sunlight streaming through my window and it can really wake the hell out of you. I swear.
( I don't really use the word "hell" in my vocabulary as I speak but...what the heck.)

Few hours ago, I was doing my HW, then a light bulb suddenly light up above my head. "ting!"
"I got an idea!" So I ended up using computer and totally forget about my HW.
I suddenly remember last Mon. I was doing HW and I can't remember what was I doing. I jerked up in my bed and I just realized I slept the whole afternoon.
Anyway,decided to update my dead friendster profile. It's now or never.
So I put on new background, new photos, new infos. ...etc. ]
NOW ITS ALIVE. MUHAHAHHA!!!
ALIVE! I TELL YOU!! ALIVE!! MUHAHAHA!!!
*ahem*
I even did a photo shop of some pics from my trip from Japan. UP THERE.

Holiday is so boring.....PSYCHED!!!
But still last night, I was "accidentally" eavesdropping from an adult meeting in our house last night. And I heard on June 20 there's going to be Socializing. Oh goodie!!
This is so going to be SO MUCH FUN!!....PYSCHED!!

Gtg, its time for SPECIAL HEARTS ROMANCES.
"Its so romantic~~" *ahem*

Due to weird claustrophobic of mine from the lift just now, and weird lighting in my bros. bedroom. I finally found out how to link other people and all that stuff.
By the way thanks to N&N for helping me out with my Blog. THANKs.

Another serious things was. Did JJ finally found somebody else?
Was I just day dreaming? That got to hurt. "Ouch!"
I really have to caught up with JJ. (FYI not the singer or what so ever)

Tagalog words are HARD!

2009-06-09T20:05:00.004+08:00

Today was boring, even when I came from school.
Right, after class straight home.
Phase back and forth inside the house.
Eventually, decided to continue "The girl by the window by Bynes Hayden" Part 2
So the whole afternoon, I was type type type......
Until I had a massive headache. It was horrible. Haayyy....

Anyway, my friend sent me this email and its about tagalog words.
It say "help me to translate it eng" so I gave it a try.
Oh-My-Gulay!! Its harder than I thought!!
What in the worlds is salungguhit?
My friends told me its an underwear, so I gave it a try. It's wrong.
I msg my friend about it and she said it means 'underline' NOT 'underwear'.

TO BE HONEST THIS KIND OF PEOPLE ARE REALLY BAD INFLUENCE TO ME!!
kaya kung nababasa nyo toh. You people are a bad bad peepss...JOKE!

there were 200 tagalog words but I only know 26 words. Just 1/10 of the words.
I'M BAD IN TAGALOG.

eeeepp!!! Till next time. Having massive headache.

Schuss!!

The Girl by the window by Bynes Hayden Part 2

2009-06-09T14:23:00.004+08:00

MARY CABOT

-- "Mary! over here!" yelled Sam waving her hands up. I stepped my way through the aisle of the bus and sat clumsily beside Sam.

"So?" asked Sam.

"What so?" I fumbled

I kept on staring at Louie's flawless neck, that I did not even realize that.....THUD.

"Ouch!! Kevin! Will you stop passing the ball around" I complained.

"Sorry Mary. I didn't do it 'accidentally'. I did it on purpose Sam asked me to.Oops" revealed Kevin.
I glared at Sam with my large beady eyes and Sam glared at Kevin.
"Sorry, Its all your fault. I've been talking to you for the past 5 min. Basically, its like i'm talking to a solid wall" said Sam sarcastically.

"AGAIN! SOLID WALL!" Shrieked Sam to my ears.

"Sam, you don't have to yell you know. I'm just beside you. People are staring" I said cautiously.

" So what's up, Sam?"

"Well, besides from the SOLID WALL.Where is it?" Sam asked

"Oh right, wait" I searched my back pack and took out Saturday Night fever DVD.

"EEeeeeppp. Thank you thank you Mary!"

"SShhh" hushed Kevin. Sam glared at him and went back reading the back cover. Kevin rolled his eyes.

Sam is a big fan of John Travolta. As far as I know, She already watched all his movies and this is the third time she borrowed Saturday Night Fever DVD. As for Kevin, well he's a junkie to basketball. As for me, I practically love reading books because its only way that I can remember my father. It's been 7 yrs since he died from illness and right after that, me and my mother moved out to a suburban town. Start a new life, with my mother working as a real estate agent and me going on senior high school.

We arrived to school like any other day. " See you at lunch, Mary" said Sam rushing towards her locker. 'Riiiinnggg' there goes the bell and i'm off to geography class. I sat beside Kevin, whose twirling his ball in his index finger. " NO ball twirling in my class, Mr Art (Mrs robinson took the ball from Kevin) Now, who can tell me the capital of China?" asked mrs Robinson.
Ms know-it-all, Emma Austen shoot her right hand up in the air and wagging it frantically.
"Beijing, Mrs Robinson" answered Emma
"Correct"
Emma smiled to herself proudly and went back to work. Hours of lessons lasted like for eternity.
Enduringly, the recess bell rang. I darted towards the door and into the hall way leaving behind Kevin begging for mercy to have his ball back from Mrs Robinson. How ironic and I could here them arguing.
"How many times do I have to tell you NO BALLS in my class." warned Mrs Robinson.
" I know Mrs Robinson. I'm sorry........"
I was flipping the pages of my geography book searching for my note....THUD.
My books and stationary were flying everywhere, I was so frustrated that I gawked to the i matures running around in the hall way.Why is this keep on happening to me today? I wondered collecting my things from the floor.

Out of no where, a hand thrust towards me with my pencil. Then I turned numb and cold all over because I recognized whose wrist band it belongs to. I peered up and I came face to face with blue eyed Louie. It's LOUIE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF ME! I'm going bonkers every time I'm facing him. My face started blushing, my palms starts to sweat ice cold.
"Here you go" said Louie
I took my pencil and put it inside my back pack.
"That was crazy. Right?"
This is Louie and he is talking to me. He knows that I exist, I'm not invisible to him.
"Mary?"
He knows my name. Oh-my-goodness, he even knows my name.
"huh?"
"Are you alright? Do you need help?Do you want me to bring you to the nurse?"
"huh?...What? Umm.. No i'm totally fine. Thanks." I mumbled still stupefied by the fact that LOUIE LAUTNER was talking to me. I smiled stupidly and leaned against the wall to support my weight. It seemed my knees even gave up on my weight.

"Well, uhh...I got to go" Louie said
"yeah, see ya around" I finally said even without stuttering in my words.
He beamed at me and walked away flawlessly. He-is-so-HOT. I felt like I was in a wonderland and i'm floating in the air. The wind is carrying me towards the cafeteria door and even pushing the both doors for me. Well, apparently there were 2 freshmen who were opening the door but what ever.
"Mary! Over here!" shouted Sam, just anywhere you could recognized her sharp voice. So I just let wind to bring me there.
"What took you so long?" questioned Sam.
"Sorry for my laaatteeenessss but a miracle just happened" I mentioned dreamingly.

Brain Storm

2009-06-08T18:15:00.000+08:00

Today, I just had a brain storm!! nyahahaha...it was awesome.
I can't even imagine that I can write it all out. As if a perfect English. Well, apparently there might be no totally perfect English but so what?! I'm freaking proud of myself writing the story.
I kept the identity hidden because.....because...alright I run out of excuses.

Anyway, this afternoon I woke with the beam of sunlight blinding my eyes. Practically that's the starting of the story. Then a sudden brain storm, right in the middle of the story. It was sorta sad story because the girls father died of an illness =( That was only the part 1 there is still part 2 if I feel like doing it.

I decided to put up a quote. So here it is, "Apparently, i'm very sensitive when it comes to you"
I guess next update again.
babuuuyy~~

Stinkiness; was it just my shirt...or is it me?

2009-05-25T20:11:00.001+08:00

Very first blog. Boring. Yet i will do my best to do. Boring.

Been seating in this chair for the past 2 hrs and still no thoughts coming in.
Honestly speaking my butt is kinda..you know. You know what I mean.

Anyway, maybe lets start with what happened today.
Alright. First off, as usual come to school and went up to class, take temperature taking and went down for PE. Today was scorching hot, seriously. I was standing in the parade square for 2 minutes and I was sweating like a pig! And to top it off, my PE shirt stinks! I don't even know why in the world it stinks. I washed it for crying out loud....or was just me that stinks? I think I forget to take a bath this morning...Naahh I think its my shirt. So because of "my shirt's stinkiness" I have to stay away from people hovering around me and when I say hover, I meant HOooVER. Enough of this stinkiness. So we were seating down in tens and the teacher was in front of us talkin'. When he said that we could take the badminton rackets and play. I moved my legs, like I said I was sweating madly. Then the teacher stared at me like i'm some kind of an alien from outer space just about to steal the most majestic badminton racket in the whole universe. Come on, I moved my legs because i was sweating, man. I stared back at him *with my staring power you will melt, unfortunately he didn't* anyway, I put down my legs and he just moved off. What was that about? hah! that guy is so weird. So we took the badminton racket and *I skipped around the parade square with my hands up, yelling " who wants to play with me??"* puh-lease, I ran into pikachu playing so I joined in. 1 round of badminton I could fill up a few gallons of my sweet sweet sweatiness a.k.a. B-Hay cologne only for $9.95 $cha-ching$ I played with Hongy until I can't take it anymore. So I stopped for a few min and played with my other classmates volley ball and Frisbee.

So the day went on, me feelin' sticky and stinky. *Heeyy, it rhymes,* until eng. oral. At least this time i'm pretty lucky cause our eng teacher was my examiner. So we went through the passage, pic conversation and conversation. I don't wanna go into details its getting boring here. Next, happening was that we had the ELDDS seniors graduation party or so-called farewell party. It was fun. The only thing I did was shout and shout and cheered cheered. Eat and eat. drink and drink. OK GREAT! I can't focused now cause i'm watching tv. hah! So now i'm signing off. got to go.

I hope tom. is a good and I know its gonna be Looong day because of the rehearsal for SYF Gala.